(he has to stop for a moment and try to comprehend what the other is saying. his eyes, hollow, devoid of light, stick to the other's like a magnet, as if he was trying to understand exactly what is it that he's staring at. the damage to the other's face doesn't bother him, it barely process - that's not what he is looking at.
it's what he feels, instead.)
... I don't know. It's like I can't control myself sometimes. My mind goes blank, and I can't find myself in the process. I can't tell left from right, and when I come back to myself, I've done things I wouldn't do on my own. I'd kill anyone I love in a heartbeat. I need it, and I hate it, but I want it.
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(he has to stop for a moment and try to comprehend what the other is saying. his eyes, hollow, devoid of light, stick to the other's like a magnet, as if he was trying to understand exactly what is it that he's staring at. the damage to the other's face doesn't bother him, it barely process - that's not what he is looking at.
it's what he feels, instead.)
... I don't know. It's like I can't control myself sometimes. My mind goes blank, and I can't find myself in the process. I can't tell left from right, and when I come back to myself, I've done things I wouldn't do on my own. I'd kill anyone I love in a heartbeat. I need it, and I hate it, but I want it.