[ Silco wants to fight, and rage, because it is all he knows. Silco has had to fight for everything from the right to breathe to the food he consumed; and then for even simple human companionship, only to find that he didn't fight hard enough β or truthfully: because he didn't know how to not right β and so he fought for revenge, and family, a place, and for freedom that he would never see because they had stolen the only thing he'd ever cared about.
Silco doesn't voice it, that need to fight, because Amos is devoted, not less than he is, but in a way that prioritizes heart over mind, and he understands that it is the reason for his name. He may not recognize it, and hell, he may see it as something else, but Silco can see it. The choice for what it is. Something that makes Amos feel loved, and oh, he was certain there was... something from Yima, but if Amos were to be inconvenient slightly more?
Would she have done the same?
If Silco were to question anything, doubt it, or become more inconvenient, would he have been saved? Would he have been saved if he hadn't just murdered Quetzalcoatl?
He keeps it to himself, of course. Because like always, when Silco speaks his mind, when he is honest about the realities, this is what happens. He knew it from the beginning, of course, hadn't he? What Amos was like, how similar he was to someone else that he knew. All heart, no brain. No calculation, only brawn. That was why he'd been needed after all, wasn't it? Why Amos had come to him? To make that hard choice, and therefore it doesn't have to lie on his conscience, while Silco took the fall for murdering people in Springstar's streets.
After all, he was happy to be the monster they all saw. ]
Don't worry, Amos. [ It's mock cheery, as if he is talking to one of those investigators, who often came by, to "investigate" his work. The ones that Marcus had to send down that he had to play nice with, even though everything in him wanted to drive a knife into their back. Not quite to that level with Amos, though it is close. ] I have not forgotten.
Just know that this world we are building is a committee. We will all give and take. There are certain things that I want for this world, and none of it has anything to do with me.
Just remember that sometimes thinking with your heart leads you to ignore that which is before you. It is a trap that many fall into β I did as well, and ignored the evidence once. It is a mistake I will not make again.
[ A sensation of clasped hands in communion. ] Though, I'm quite glad it is you she has tasked with this and not I. Just remember what my Name means, hm? [ Who it is ]
There are worse fates than it being I.
[ After all, Silco had not done the unthinkable. ]
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Silco doesn't voice it, that need to fight, because Amos is devoted, not less than he is, but in a way that prioritizes heart over mind, and he understands that it is the reason for his name. He may not recognize it, and hell, he may see it as something else, but Silco can see it. The choice for what it is. Something that makes Amos feel loved, and oh, he was certain there was... something from Yima, but if Amos were to be inconvenient slightly more?
Would she have done the same?
If Silco were to question anything, doubt it, or become more inconvenient, would he have been saved? Would he have been saved if he hadn't just murdered Quetzalcoatl?
He keeps it to himself, of course. Because like always, when Silco speaks his mind, when he is honest about the realities, this is what happens. He knew it from the beginning, of course, hadn't he? What Amos was like, how similar he was to someone else that he knew. All heart, no brain. No calculation, only brawn. That was why he'd been needed after all, wasn't it? Why Amos had come to him? To make that hard choice, and therefore it doesn't have to lie on his conscience, while Silco took the fall for murdering people in Springstar's streets.
After all, he was happy to be the monster they all saw. ]
Don't worry, Amos. [ It's mock cheery, as if he is talking to one of those investigators, who often came by, to "investigate" his work. The ones that Marcus had to send down that he had to play nice with, even though everything in him wanted to drive a knife into their back. Not quite to that level with Amos, though it is close. ] I have not forgotten.
Just know that this world we are building is a committee. We will all give and take. There are certain things that I want for this world, and none of it has anything to do with me.
Just remember that sometimes thinking with your heart leads you to ignore that which is before you. It is a trap that many fall into β I did as well, and ignored the evidence once. It is a mistake I will not make again.
[ A sensation of clasped hands in communion. ] Though, I'm quite glad it is you she has tasked with this and not I. Just remember what my Name means, hm? [ Who it is ]
There are worse fates than it being I.
[ After all, Silco had not done the unthinkable. ]