[ It sounded similar to the high that people had with Shimmer. Losing all sense of self, losing the will and ability to discern friend from foe -- well, depending on the dose -- but it was a similar enough thought that Silco only blinked his single eye, and evaluated Mikey for a moment.
A long moment, considering the words to say. ]
Of course you do. It's power, it's abandon, it's without control. It's the power to do things that you would otherwise say no to, yes?
What part of 'people I love' went right over your head? I wouldn't... I don't want to hurt them.
(but silco sees right through him, does he not? that's exactly why he wants to gather the best of all he can. even the dark impulses, as miserable as it can make him, have use. he'd kill kazutora if he hadn't been stopped.)
Then they should be stronger, to restrain your dark side, or they aren't worthy of that sort of affection.
[ He said it, bluntly. Silco didn't doubt, that if he were on a murderous rampage, that the one person he cared about -- an uncontrolled flicker through that soulmate bond, Silco was not without at least one person he cared about, clearly -- would be able to stop him.
She had, after all, killed him. ]
Isn't this Dark Impulse of yours something to cultivate? We'll need every advantage we can have here, and perhaps if you learn to indulge it... at the right times, it will settle.
You dick, the people who did that died. Baji's here, at least. That helps.
(shinichiro sano, keisuke baji, emma sano -- baji being here is a relief, at least. his presence soothes, and even when mikey was alive, he could hear his voice in his head, guiding, giving information he couldn't have otherwise known.
shinichiro's a tether, and while emma did die, his brain is in denial, as the last memory that rings true is her still alive on his back on the way to the hospital. he's lost too many people already.)
[ Silco rolled his eyes. He didn't intend to be a "dick", it was just a fact. If they were killed, were they not weak? He'd been murdered by his own daughter, and he didn't blame her. Mostly. She was just as easily pulled under by her own... impulses, her own Dark Impulse. ]
Well, next time you need advice on your... "dark impulse", feel free to stop by. It might not be your shadow, but at the same time, isn't it similar enough?
[ There's a slight smile, there. He spread his hands. ] At least you can approach without judgement, hm?
(still. his people would go down to hell and back for him, but to mikey's own self-loathing, that isn't exactly ideal. the last thing he'd like is to worsen them as he falls down the pit of the curse - not that he knows what it is.)
Have you tried indulging it in a controlled manner?
[ He asked, as he tapped his finger against his desk, thoughtful. It's the sort of thing that he would try. Control it by sating the beast, indulge it so it didn't come up at inopportune times. Would it work, though, was the question. ]
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A long moment, considering the words to say. ]
Of course you do. It's power, it's abandon, it's without control. It's the power to do things that you would otherwise say no to, yes?
Why would you hate that?
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(but silco sees right through him, does he not? that's exactly why he wants to gather the best of all he can. even the dark impulses, as miserable as it can make him, have use. he'd kill kazutora if he hadn't been stopped.)
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Then they should be stronger, to restrain your dark side, or they aren't worthy of that sort of affection.
[ He said it, bluntly. Silco didn't doubt, that if he were on a murderous rampage, that the one person he cared about -- an uncontrolled flicker through that soulmate bond, Silco was not without at least one person he cared about, clearly -- would be able to stop him.
She had, after all, killed him. ]
Isn't this Dark Impulse of yours something to cultivate? We'll need every advantage we can have here, and perhaps if you learn to indulge it... at the right times, it will settle.
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(shinichiro sano, keisuke baji, emma sano -- baji being here is a relief, at least. his presence soothes, and even when mikey was alive, he could hear his voice in his head, guiding, giving information he couldn't have otherwise known.
shinichiro's a tether, and while emma did die, his brain is in denial, as the last memory that rings true is her still alive on his back on the way to the hospital. he's lost too many people already.)
... Yeah. We'll see.
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Well, next time you need advice on your... "dark impulse", feel free to stop by. It might not be your shadow, but at the same time, isn't it similar enough?
[ There's a slight smile, there. He spread his hands. ] At least you can approach without judgement, hm?
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(still. his people would go down to hell and back for him, but to mikey's own self-loathing, that isn't exactly ideal. the last thing he'd like is to worsen them as he falls down the pit of the curse - not that he knows what it is.)
I haven't-- deal with it yet. I don't know.
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Have you tried indulging it in a controlled manner?
[ He asked, as he tapped his finger against his desk, thoughtful. It's the sort of thing that he would try. Control it by sating the beast, indulge it so it didn't come up at inopportune times. Would it work, though, was the question. ]