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𝗦𝗢𝗹𝗰𝗼 ([personal profile] zauneyete) wrote2022-10-21 08:13 am

KENOS IC CONTACT

SILCO
CONTACT
WRITTEN β—¦ ACTION β—¦ COMMUNION
© TESSISAMESS
[ Communion with Silco is like being doused in cold, polluted water. It feels like taking a breath is difficult, like there's fingers around your throat, pain all over. The water is too-slick like it's almost more pollutants than water, and the water crashes against you, inescapable, even if you were to somehow find the ability to breathe, there is still no escape from the sickening undertow. Somewhere, perhaps deeper in the water, or something else, is a simmering, vile hatred, resentment, and it feels like it should be hot enough to make the water around you boil, even if it's almost too-placid, and too cold. Like all of this hatred is buried deep. Then again, the fact that it feels so close means it must burn so hot. ]
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communion, early Pelu/post-gossip.

[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-11 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Nevermind everything Silco had said, let alone how long he had gone on for. Amos had only been half-listening when his voice entered his mind, the rest of him more focused on something else. Something very, very specific; a feeling, a presence.

Let their compatriots chew him out however they saw fit; that was their business. And Amos' was much more narrow in scope, both because he's already well aware that Silco is never going to change β€” and also because there's the chance he might.

And so, well after everyone has gotten what they've felt they needed to off their chests, in the dead of night, Amos requests his company.

And again, without any preamble, ]
Did you see Yima?

[ But he isn't desperate for news on her welfare. He does not know of her state, and is simply convinced that she is still out there somewhere. He doesn't need more than that, confident that she will return, one way or another.

No β€” it's more a question for Silco, a curiosity he wants an answer on. If you did, did she impart anything on you, because he swears he can sense something. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-12 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
Florence came to get you.

[ Amos repeats the phrase that's of interest. Not that Yima lingers; he already figured as much, and Silco's certainty compounds it. He might not be able to reach her himself, but he figures he doesn't need to. Not now, not so soon after what she's given him.

No β€” it's that Florence came to get Silco, and from what Amos knows of her, she would not do that without a very, very specific reason. For a very, very specific person, confident that he falls in that group alongside Silco.

Which means. ]


We're the same, then. With Zenith. [ With Yima, wherever she ended up, and all it entails to be with her. He doesn't understand everything that Silco does β€” but he understands that he understands. They've both crossed over to something new. Something good and fulfilling, from Amos' perspectiveβ€”

But they're opposite aspects, have vastly different priorities in life, and he doesn't know what Silco thinks of it. Just that... it's happened. It's in the both of them now, and so. ]


What did she call you? After.

[ Because if Yima is still here, then one way or another something has been imparted onto Silco, he's sure of it. Maybe not by Yima's hand, the way Amos had experienced it, but β€” something, and he wants to know what. ]
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1/2

[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-14 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ Amos stares back, unblinking and patient. Oh, and he waits for the answer once Silco is done evaluating him, determining that they are indeed on the same page.

... Oh.

The sensation of Amos staring back. Then, a blink. Then his eyes shutting entirely, head dipping as away, in the physical world, he brings up a hand to massage at his temples. ]


Right. Of course. [ Exhaustion drips from his voice, already resigned to what this'll mean for the short-term future. (He is not willing to think long-term at this particular moment in time.) ] I should've guessed.

[ He massages his temples a little harder, the force of the impression traversing across communion. Just getting ready for the headache he already knows is coming... ]

Okay, so. Look. I know you're going to keep causing shit β€” [ Silco is never going to change now, is he. Ugh. He's going to need to get a drink after this. Maybe during β€” ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-14 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
β€” but I'm here for you, okay? Not when you go on one of your stupid rants, but if you're ever in danger. Physical danger. 'cause fuck knows you've put a target on your back, so you're gonna need someone watching out for it. I'll do that.

[ Nevermind that Amos almost certainly also has a target on his back β€” at least it's from one side only. He tends to get along with Zenites. Wants to be there for them instead of goad them on.

That, and he knows he can handle himself in a fight, but can't say the same for Silco. And besides, to prove him right β€” ]


That's what Yima'd want me to do, so call me any time you need a save. I'm here for you.
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-15 11:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Silco knows EXACTLY what it means!! It's what he's felt regarding him in the past but intensified now, matching their new circumstances. The new bond they'll have to share.

He holds fast against the overwhelming sensation of Silco's belief. Amos does not possess that level of conviction β€” at least, not to a concept. He does to a select few people, but he doesn't recognize it as a different, but related, breed of faith to what Silco has. The Harbinger to revolution, the Exalt to people... The connection, opposite as their natures may be, still goes right over his head. ]


Rin's worried about you driving people away. We still need people, [ says the Exalt. There's his own plea with it too, though. Strength in numbers. ] And you might not be weeding people out so much as encouraging them to come for you. And Florence isn't going to be there to come get you every time.

[ Like during an Oracle, which surely they can both feel is on the horizon. ]

I know you think you're doing the right thing, but we're on equal ground, right? So if I'm telling you that you can call for me any time you might be in danger, I'm telling you that you're putting yourself in danger. [ The Exalt, again, looking to protect his kin. Silco's who he's ended up with, so yeah, it is thoughtful of him, actually. ] If I'm wrong, then great. No skin off either of our noses. But if I'm right, are you going to listen to me then?

[ And, a pause.

Then, the impression of his Name. A title he's taking seriously, a self-assuredness accompanying it. ]


Don't read too much into it. [ For... obvious reasons. ] But you should probably still listen to me.
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-22 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, as long as Silco thinks it's funny, then good. They won't have to deal with any awkward misconceptions. Just the fundamental differences between them as people, which, for as impossible as they are, is still infinitely easier.

Now all that's left is to listen. And try not to feel so exasperated as Silco goes on yet again, plunging below his depths instead. The water to Silco's oil. ]


I did say you were right to kill her, and that was before I even knew her role in things. Guess you were too busy to hear me then. [ It's non-judgmental, though. Amos had been busy when he'd ascended, and from the timeline he can piece together, he figures Silco was undergoing something similar β€” if maybe shittier, because Yima wasn't there in body the way she was for Amos. He'd been legitimately busy. ] Got some pushback for that, but I know you were right. Problem is most people don't tend to think like us. Not even the ones on our side.

[ Like us. Because they'd both understood the necessity of having to kill sometimes, and now... who knows how much more separate they'll become, compared to their less harmonized compatriots. ]

We gotta figure out the right balancing act. Can't scare 'em off.

[ And as Silco laughs, Amos' mouth twists into something of a wry grin. ]

And I don't think you could insult me if you tried. Takes a lot. Just as long as you do it if you need me.

[ Because he can feel that now. That new sense of purpose. For Amos, it's Yima; he assumes for Silco, it's the same. Live for her.

So, ]
Gotta see everything through to the end, right?
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-24 09:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, Amos wants peace, too. Would like to have it now, with Meridian recognizing that they're chasing a hopeless dream and allowing Zenith to complete their work without opposition. But since he doubts that's going to happen, then peace in the new world would be nice.

Nothing wrong with a little complacency, as long as it's where things are already good for everyone. They can still see to it that things end up that way in the end.

... Maybe not Silco, but. That'll be a later problem. In the meantime Amos huffs a laugh that's almost soft, affectionate. ]


You want me to play good cop to your bad one? [ Unspoken at the end of the sentence is a familial title, the relationship they share that Amos is comfortable with acknowledging. Amused because while it's an apt phrase the idea of either of them playing cop is pretty funny, considering where they both came from. ] Because yeah, I can do that.

[ He's the one who can soften the edges, who can plead to wanting less murder (because he does) and avoid scaring off the less committed among their ranks. So that maybe one day they can join them, yes, but also so their odds of actually seeing things through are increased. So that Silco can still live for, ]

We'll get there. All of us.

[ Well, he'll keep assuming it's for Yima until he discovers otherwise, because of who they are now. Even though he would respect Silco for the truth significantly more β€” but he figures where they're both at now is good enough, anyway. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-25 08:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's the impression of Amos' expression twisting a little, part wry, part annoyed as Silco elaborates on his positions, again. Dredges up his childhood, which is a less frequent occurrence, and makes Amos think: I could have known you, back then. They could have grown up together, and not a whole lot would be different from the way it is now.

Except they might not be able to get along at all, considering how Amos had liked Vander. Considering how for all of their similar circumstances, they've managed to take vastly different paths β€” and the thing that bothers him the most is he's far more likely to go down Silco's than Silco ever is his.

He's right. Nobody would buy a change of heart from him. Amos might hope for one, vastly down the line, but as far as this war is concerned? He knows it's not going to happen. ]


Yeah. Alright, I'll keep the blows soft. Might need you to cool it sometimes, but I'll keep people going.

[ A deep breath, because turns out, maybe Silco has somewhat bothered him. ]

Kindness can keep people alive, though. [ Amos doubts he would have lived past childhood without it, but also: ] Yima came to get you, didn't she?

[ A kindness. ]

Look, if this ends up with us having to kill everyone on the other side, then we will. But after? You might have to reevaluate.

[ And who knows how likely that'll be, considering who he's talking to, but.

He would like that. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-03-26 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ He can't tamp down the frustration building up within him. Amos knows he's broken beyond repair; has known this for most of his life, only to maybe have found the fix for him. It should have been impossible, but because of who Yima is, it's reality. Gradual, but reality.

And Silco is apparently more broken than he ever was, which is difficult to fathom, that there's absolutely no breaking through. Amos will point out objective fact β€” that Yima came for him β€” and Silco will brush it aside with talk of tools and timeliness, reducing that precious love down to a sociopathic practicality.

Fuck's sake, he wants to growl out, and leaves the impression of it to his mind instead. There's no reasoning here. There's no argument to be won, because you can't argue with a brick wall. There's just... ]


Don't insult me. [ Amos responds with teeth, jaws snapping; Silco would do well to remember he isn't the only monster here. And apparently Amos can get offended, after all. ] You look into what my name means and tell me what I'm getting out of it other than kindness. Yima can give me that, and you reduce it to a tool. A tool for fucking what.

[ He'd already announced it, an exploration into what he thinks is the right thing to do. It's baby steps, he knows. He's still figuring it out. But he's committed to it β€” and has not forgotten that it was Silco's idea that resulted in the vast majority of the deaths in Springstar. Amos takes responsibility for it, because he has to, but it hadn't come from him. ]

We're utilizing our strengths. We only got so much time to perfect them, but we will. But maybe you would do best to keep in mind that there are ways that aren't yours, and you're going to have to accept them, or you're not going to like what comes after.

[ He wants his perfect world in the life after. Wants to be there with Yima, with everyone else who will come. Wants peace, and kindness, and for men like him and Silco to have no place, shaped into something new and better.

And for as much as Amos can vow to protect Silco as though he's his own, there's the other side of that: he can vow to put him in time out until he grows the fuck up and stops threatening what he (and by extension Yima, he assumes) wants. They both understand violence, so surely he can understand this, too. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-04-02 09:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ He bristles at the mock cheer, not particularly enjoying being talked down to. There's the sensation of him pacing as Silco speaks, a large predator stuck behind the bars of communion, where all he can do is listen and observe β€” and all of the frustration that comes with that impotency.

Words are not his domain, after all. Raw physicality is, but maybe one day feelings, too. Heart. Because Amos has had to fight since childhood, a constant battle for survival β€” but in him, he knows he wants better.

And Silco does not, and it's going to drive him mad. ]


I like the other one more. [ It's petty, but after how his recent talks have gone? It's true, despite what had occurred. ] I hear your shit about committees. It'll happen. But at the same time? I am not letting you fuck this up.

[ Their new world is going to be good. Amos will see to that, will fight and scrap and claw until it's established as such. Silco warns him against thinking with his heart, and it goes in one ear and out the other β€” because there's so little that Amos actually wants, but he wants this, and will get himself fucked up in the pursuit to achieve it and never notice.

He trusts Silco to help see Zenith's victory through. But once they're there, and the next step comes? Where they have to build? That's when it's most likely to get especially ugly between them, and Amos is preparing for what feels like the eventuality of it. ]


But if you want to talk about not making the same mistake twice β€” don't mock me again.

[ Because he wants it. Wants his Name. Wants his new world. And if Silco is going to pose a threat to that like he suspects he will, he'll be ready. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-04-07 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ Amos stares back, Silco's anger egging his on. There's teeth, the inaudible rumble of a growl. Someone threatens you and you don't talk, you kill.

Silco, of all people, should be able to understand that.

But for that flicker. There and gone, but something strong enough to make an impression, however brief. It stops Amos in his tracks, gaze darting away as if he's looking for its source, rumble stilling. He hardly knows what love is β€” certainly not enough to put its name to something so brief β€” but it still felt like something positive. Or if not positive, then at least... something to strive for. Like Silco isn't a total lost cause, as Amos had been on the verge of writing him off as one.

He almost doesn't hear what Silco says next, too busy focusing on that flicker. What it meant.

I am not building this for me, and. ]


Okay. [ Not a surrender, but a concession, instant and without fuss. It isn't all about Silco, and Amos can live with that. That should mean that he isn't in danger of losing his shit, tearing down everything they're working for. So that he isn't working on burning it all to the ground because he's a petty, spiteful man β€” but he's working for someone else.

Shockingly, that works just fine for an Exalt. ]
Okay. Then we'll still build it together. With... with whoever else joins us, when we make it to the end. We'll all work on it together. Build it for everyone else.

[ It's exactly what Yima wants them to do, too. He's sure of it. So... okay. They'll do it. Amos will lower his hackles, and they'll get there. ]
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[personal profile] baltimores 2024-04-07 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
Right. [ No longer seeing a need to assert himself, the agreement comes easily. There's the impression of a nod, crisp and final. ] Good.

[ Whatever Silco's true intentions are... Well, he might have to have words with him then. But in the now there's no need; in the now they've reached an understanding. Something they may need to do time and time again, because it's what Yima will want from them, andβ€”

Well, they got over this particular bump in the road smoothly enough. They can do it again. And again...

It'll be fine. ]


We'll lead the way, then. We'll be the last ones standing.

[ And, because they both know the next one will be coming soon β€” the next stage of their fight, the beginning of tipping the scales back in their favour, permanently β€” there's the impression of Amos meeting Silco's gaze once again, unflinching and with something that could almost be considered affection, if it could come naturally to him.

Maybe one day. Under Yima's guidance. ]


See you on the other side, brother.