I'll take your word for it. It's certainly a difference in the places we live, since even the dangerous parts of New Eridu are different than your Undercity.
[ But he does worry a bit, just like the first time they'd talked about Jinx. He doesn't doubt that Silco loves her, at least, but is this kind of mindset truly necessary? Maybe it is. But he'd still want to hope for a similar future for Jinx than he hopes for Vivian. ]
Is that what you've focused on for yourself? Survival?
[ Silco perhaps many years ago, would have agreed. But Silco and Jinx as they are have been through so much, warped and twisted themselves into monsters that there truly is no going back. Before Silco had picked her up in the rain, there was hope for her to have a happy and free life.
Not so, after Silco raised her. He has never once been able to peel himself away from the traumas, and she wouldn't, either. Not now. Not in the end. ]
I would not be where I am today, if I was not. [ Well... ] Well. Before arriving here.
I had to survive despite many, many factors trying to ensure that I will not.
...Believe it or not, I do understand that. There was a time in my life that I would have said exactly the same, though the circumstances are extremely different.
Forgive me if this is overstepping. It's because I know where that impulse comes from. When you're so focused on survival, anything else is difficult, to put it lightly.
[ ...yeah he can see an intense crashout in silco's future. one day. ]
This is easier said than done, I know. But I'm passing along advice I received many years ago, and I did find it helpful.
But take care to try and find something that isn't simply making it from one day to the next. I can't tell you what that should be, since that's a personal preference, but... It does help.
Consider it a contingency plan, then. You don't strike me as the sort of person that would overlook having backup plans if things go poorly. It's essentially the same as that.
[ Silco... really has a way of looking at things, doesn't he? Hugo sighs, a bit exasperated, but at least the benefit of texting is that he can keep that to himself. ]
I wouldn't put it that way, but regardless. Just be careful? That's my point in the end, since I am concerned about your well-being.
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[ But he does worry a bit, just like the first time they'd talked about Jinx. He doesn't doubt that Silco loves her, at least, but is this kind of mindset truly necessary? Maybe it is. But he'd still want to hope for a similar future for Jinx than he hopes for Vivian. ]
Is that what you've focused on for yourself? Survival?
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Not so, after Silco raised her. He has never once been able to peel himself away from the traumas, and she wouldn't, either. Not now. Not in the end. ]
I would not be where I am today, if I was not. [ Well... ] Well. Before arriving here.
I had to survive despite many, many factors trying to ensure that I will not.
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Forgive me if this is overstepping. It's because I know where that impulse comes from. When you're so focused on survival, anything else is difficult, to put it lightly.
But do you still feel that way now?
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Mostly.
The only other thing I am focused on is my... project, and returning home.
Although I should think they are somewhat the same.
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This is easier said than done, I know. But I'm passing along advice I received many years ago, and I did find it helpful.
But take care to try and find something that isn't simply making it from one day to the next. I can't tell you what that should be, since that's a personal preference, but... It does help.
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Help.
With what?
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I see. I'm not exactly qualified to get into it, as it were. But being so singularly focused isn't good for you if it goes poorly.
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Consider it a contingency plan, then. You don't strike me as the sort of person that would overlook having backup plans if things go poorly. It's essentially the same as that.
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Contingencies are plans to move forward, not acceptance of failure.
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I wouldn't put it that way, but regardless. Just be careful? That's my point in the end, since I am concerned about your well-being.
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Of all things, Hugo, I am a survivor above all else. I will be fine.
it was a joke tag but then i went well actually,
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But I've borrowed your time enough at this point, so thank you for that. Truly. Our conversations are always insightful.
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