[ Well, that's a better answer, at least. Still not ideal, because Hugo imagines that Silco would get himself killed in the pursuit to go home rather than actually accept being here, but... He'll take it, because it's true. This is all speculation for now. ]
Fair enough! I just wanted to make sure you weren't so caught up on the idea of returning that you hadn't considered the alternative, you know?
Like it or not, I worry about you, old man~ You can blame the imprint in part, but I'm also just a natural worrier!
[ He'll damn well try, if it means there's a chance of getting home. ]
There is that, but you have little to fret about from me.
I can assure you, my strength is in planning, and I do not do so without contingencies. Just because I have a desired outcome, doesn't mean there aren't alternatives I am... aware of, and making sure to accommodate, as long as they do not interfere with the main goal.
I just also know we're similar, you know? So I was a little worried that your hope to see your daughter again is like my hope to see Vivian.
[ Which is a lie, technically. Hugo doesn't believe he ever will, but that doesn't mean that there isn't a tiny part of him that hopes for a miracle. That's just a stronger feeling for Silco, he thinks. ]
It's easy to be a little blinded by our girls, right~?
[ He has to. He will. he has no other choice. What does Silco have, if he is not trying to make it back to Jinx. More than Zaun, more than shimmer, it's Jinx that he does this for. ]
I will make it happen, Hugo. I do not believe in giving up.
Aha… If only if it were as simple as just deciding.
The circumstances we’ve been forced into are difficult, to put it lightly. I wouldn’t say I’m completely lacking in resolve, at least, but… I still fear the possibility that this terrible place really is our new home forevermore. I can’t push the thought away, as much as I’d like to.
Accepting what was done to us is the first step towards embracing your fears, after all. We cannot allow ourselves to accept it, until every alternative has been eradicated.
The moment you entertain it, you have already given up. It is easy. Insidious.
Fighting your way out of that becomes harder, the longer you allow it to fester.
[ There's a longer than usual space between that and his next message, and that's rather telling, isn't it? He thinks so, since he's acutely aware of how long it takes for him to find his words. On one hand, he feels close to Silco, imprint or no, so he could be honest...
But that's where they're similar. That feeling of closeness means vulnerability, and what's more dangerous than that? ]
My doubts are just worries, since I can't help but try and consider every possibility, and some of them are worse than others. But there's no space to give up either. I won't hand my fate over to anyone else. It's mine alone.
Well, that's certainly true. Why, from that perspective, I should be a veritable expert at treading through mires. This makes, oh... Personal reinvention number four or so?
Though granted, they've never looked like this. It's always been near death, not the actual thing. Alas~
When you let your weaker self die, you become stronger, and more capable. Like a creature shedding its skin, you now have a new layer of armor, prepared to tackle what comes next.
We all make mistakes, we all foolishly trust. Even I have done it.
[ He still did, after all of that. He put everything towards Jinx, and —
He will always forgive her. It wasn't her fault. It was her Sister's. ]
We must move forward. Refuse to let the past do more than build the foundation upon which we tread our next steps.
[ Area man whose own past is his personal ball and chain saying to not look behind you as the past weighs you down. Typical. ]
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Fair enough! I just wanted to make sure you weren't so caught up on the idea of returning that you hadn't considered the alternative, you know?
Like it or not, I worry about you, old man~ You can blame the imprint in part, but I'm also just a natural worrier!
It makes me an excellent planner, at least.
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There is that, but you have little to fret about from me.
I can assure you, my strength is in planning, and I do not do so without contingencies. Just because I have a desired outcome, doesn't mean there aren't alternatives I am... aware of, and making sure to accommodate, as long as they do not interfere with the main goal.
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I just also know we're similar, you know? So I was a little worried that your hope to see your daughter again is like my hope to see Vivian.
[ Which is a lie, technically. Hugo doesn't believe he ever will, but that doesn't mean that there isn't a tiny part of him that hopes for a miracle. That's just a stronger feeling for Silco, he thinks. ]
It's easy to be a little blinded by our girls, right~?
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[ He has to. He will. he has no other choice. What does Silco have, if he is not trying to make it back to Jinx. More than Zaun, more than shimmer, it's Jinx that he does this for. ]
I will make it happen, Hugo. I do not believe in giving up.
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[ He wishes he could have that same level of resolve, honestly. Even if it's delusional, it's surely a better feeling than his own doubts. ]
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[ Bluntly. Silco occasionally cuts in like a dagger aiming for something vital. ]
You should simply decide to remain steadfast, if it is something you admire.
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The circumstances we’ve been forced into are difficult, to put it lightly. I wouldn’t say I’m completely lacking in resolve, at least, but… I still fear the possibility that this terrible place really is our new home forevermore. I can’t push the thought away, as much as I’d like to.
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Accepting what was done to us is the first step towards embracing your fears, after all. We cannot allow ourselves to accept it, until every alternative has been eradicated.
The moment you entertain it, you have already given up. It is easy. Insidious.
Fighting your way out of that becomes harder, the longer you allow it to fester.
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[ There's a longer than usual space between that and his next message, and that's rather telling, isn't it? He thinks so, since he's acutely aware of how long it takes for him to find his words. On one hand, he feels close to Silco, imprint or no, so he could be honest...
But that's where they're similar. That feeling of closeness means vulnerability, and what's more dangerous than that? ]
My doubts are just worries, since I can't help but try and consider every possibility, and some of them are worse than others. But there's no space to give up either. I won't hand my fate over to anyone else. It's mine alone.
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But becoming mired in it prevents us from looking toward the future and finding a way through the mire to what we want.
And in the end, our motivations are all that we have. It is what will push us forward when needed.
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Though granted, they've never looked like this. It's always been near death, not the actual thing. Alas~
I'll get over it in time. I always have.
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We all make mistakes, we all foolishly trust. Even I have done it.
[ He still did, after all of that. He put everything towards Jinx, and —
He will always forgive her. It wasn't her fault. It was her Sister's. ]
We must move forward. Refuse to let the past do more than build the foundation upon which we tread our next steps.
[ Area man whose own past is his personal ball and chain saying to not look behind you as the past weighs you down. Typical. ]