[ That's it. Lmao. Just couldn't do it when he lived this long already. And then... ]
Then I found out she survived. It's enough to keep one going.
It's complicated. How I found her, the circumstances. I'd just killed someone important. To Zaun, to get, to me. The person who made me who I am today.
She helped though, accidentally. We were both tossed aside by the people around us when we made a mistake. I know what it is, to suffer that alone.
[ He's actually a little surprised that Silco shares the story, considering how long it's taken to get to this, but he's pleased. After all, it fills in the missing pieces perfectly. It's difficult for him to imagine Silco seeing a girl crying in the rain and suddenly having a change of heart.
But if it all comes back to him? Yeah. That's the self-centered guy that he knows.
It's an assessment he keeps to himself, naturally. ]
poetic. maybe there's a god in your world taking a peek at both of you with irony like that.
for me though? that answers my curiosity. who knew that my acolyte had a secret soft spot!
not shame so what? caution? this is when I go back to our conversation from earlier. this is a better framing than taking a shower though for sure.
this ain't kenos or zaun and there's not going to be people that know better. hell considering your popularity you're right. it's going to be brought up intentionally
[ Tried to convince him to be a "better person" and everything. ]
But if anyone thinks to use it, I will put an end to them. I have no choice in it getting out.
I do have a choice in how I will deal with it, if someone is foolish enough to think they can use her. They will be given a lesson in how we deal with things in Zaun.
I support that obviously. hell I support it a bit more than the usual ventures.
but you think anyone here is up for that? if you think someone has the stomach for that kind of move I'm all ears because far as I can tell half of these people are barely warriors. if the kaiju were able to chat they'd allow themselves to be crushed rather than extinguish a life. no matter the cost. seoul is proof enough.
not saying you have to relax of course. but you might be chasing ghosts is my point.
[ He hates that he's right. Most of them won't be able to stomach it. Even those he dislikes are... weak-willed, too willing to do what they saw as morally correct, rather than what was Correct. It was a distinct difference.
Silco still remembered protecting her for a year and a half. Helpless, volatile, unable to do anything. Just a soul, stuck in a gem. She was free now, this wasn't the land before, but even still, he keeps it in a safe place, even if it's cold and inert, he keeps it on him often enough. He can't help it. The old habits.
It's like a reassurance, even now. That she is alive. ]
It is an old habit. It's the one that worked.
[ And really, does Silco know how to do anything but squeeze too tight? ]
[ He's right. Silco is good at adapting, he has in some ways, but in others...
He's carrying the leftover burden of not just Zaun, but Kenos too. It still settles with him, still rides with him. Every action is filtered through two lenses, and both are broken. ]
Right, right. Advice from a god, is it? I'll take it under advisement.
[ Normally, this means: fuck off. To Tezca, it means he'll think about it. ]
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@nice toy
now why is it that I get to confirm that you're a dad from your kid mentioning it instead of you
don't tell me she's a family embarrassment
@BAD DADDY
It was for her protection. Not from you, just in general.
I don't make a habit of bringing it up. Especially since before... You can imagine what would have happened, if anyone knew.
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here though? I'm surprised you still feel the urge I guess. what's there to protect her from?
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[ Tezca is one of the few he will admit this to. ]
As it stands, it hasn't been something we... Talked about much even before. Not with anyone else. The Data being made public somewhat changes that.
[undercity's worst kept secret etc etc ]
cw casual suicide mention SIGHS
have to admit though. it's why you didn't strike me as the fatherly type. especially not the adopting a wayward child kind
how'd that come about?
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[ That's it. Lmao. Just couldn't do it when he lived this long already. And then... ]
Then I found out she survived. It's enough to keep one going.
It's complicated. How I found her, the circumstances. I'd just killed someone important. To Zaun, to get, to me. The person who made me who I am today.
She helped though, accidentally. We were both tossed aside by the people around us when we made a mistake. I know what it is, to suffer that alone.
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But if it all comes back to him? Yeah. That's the self-centered guy that he knows.
It's an assessment he keeps to himself, naturally. ]
poetic. maybe there's a god in your world taking a peek at both of you with irony like that.
for me though? that answers my curiosity. who knew that my acolyte had a secret soft spot!
you want me to look out for her?
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If there's a god in my world, it had best keep to themselves, lest I get my hands on them.
[ What's he REALLY gonna fuckin' do???? ]
I don't have a soft spot. [ He protests. He does. ]
She'll protest if she finds out. You should probably look out for her anyway. She has a propensity to get into trouble.
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it's the same kind of looking after I extend to you so she won't notice I'm guessing
[ like. he knows his help ain't shit... but he might save you from drowning exactly once ]
she take after you in denying the blatantly obvious to your face too? I ain't going to make fun of you for loving your kid silco
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[ It really is like father like daughter here ]
Hm. Then if you wouldn't mind. I have other eyes as well, but... every time I look away, she ends up in some kind of trouble.
[ he's so tired look at the white stripe in his hair that is from HER ]
It isn't shame about it. In Zaun, everyone knows better than to bring it up, or address it, but here... the number of people that know is growing.
Well, I suppose everyone knows now, and I doubt they will keep their mouths shut.
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this ain't kenos or zaun and there's not going to be people that know better. hell considering your popularity you're right. it's going to be brought up intentionally
you ready for that?
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[ Tried to convince him to be a "better person" and everything. ]
But if anyone thinks to use it, I will put an end to them. I have no choice in it getting out.
I do have a choice in how I will deal with it, if someone is foolish enough to think they can use her. They will be given a lesson in how we deal with things in Zaun.
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but you think anyone here is up for that? if you think someone has the stomach for that kind of move I'm all ears because far as I can tell half of these people are barely warriors. if the kaiju were able to chat they'd allow themselves to be crushed rather than extinguish a life. no matter the cost. seoul is proof enough.
not saying you have to relax of course. but you might be chasing ghosts is my point.
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Silco still remembered protecting her for a year and a half. Helpless, volatile, unable to do anything. Just a soul, stuck in a gem. She was free now, this wasn't the land before, but even still, he keeps it in a safe place, even if it's cold and inert, he keeps it on him often enough. He can't help it. The old habits.
It's like a reassurance, even now. That she is alive. ]
It is an old habit. It's the one that worked.
[ And really, does Silco know how to do anything but squeeze too tight? ]
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but sticking to the rules of home hasn’t exactly worked out for you all the time has it?
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Not always, no. It's a risk assessment.
Besides, the rules here are hardly better.
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just pointing out that some habits are worth reevaluating. stay too rigid and you're making blind spots
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He's carrying the leftover burden of not just Zaun, but Kenos too. It still settles with him, still rides with him. Every action is filtered through two lenses, and both are broken. ]
Right, right. Advice from a god, is it? I'll take it under advisement.
[ Normally, this means: fuck off. To Tezca, it means he'll think about it. ]
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well. in this case anyways. gotta keep you on your toes for when I’ll hit you up demanding weed and/or kaiju offal
and swing by the bar sometime next week. hit me up so I can make you a glitter since it’s your drink and all
[ Next week of course being very much intentional. He figures Silco will have had another conversation by then, after all. ]
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I'll swing by. I'll admit I want to see how it holds up compared to the real thing. You can tell me too.
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but it's a fun novelty. that's more the point
won't even make you play the dice game unless you want to